Intersexion

I don’t know what it is that draws me nearer to you It is like a magnetism that has no further pull than our inherent concentricity It is an electrical current that runs ever so swiftly through my entire being I am ignited by the very essence of you I don’t know what it is that locks me in to your orbit It is a gravity that pushes me to pull you closer inside my depths It is the mechanism of union and the locomotion of energy I am set ablaze by the bottom of the blue-core flame of you There is nothing I can do to be set free from you I don’t ever want to go away from your side

The student/apprentice that I am always feels the need to rebel against the teacher. It is a way of exerting intellectual independence counter to all the lessons taught and learned, expressing the internal truth I have within myself , expressing my own intelligence and it works this way, which is not always your way, the taught-to-be right way. I recognize this rebellion yet do not try to temper it. It is my learned behavior of learning. I am learning to come to understand in the teachers way now, with totality and without feint.

*this is an excerpt from a journal entry from January 1998, written as an self-exposition on a personal issue I needed to express and I felt strongly about and is still relevant today. After spending years on improving myself and my relationships, I now rest happily being the Master/Student always ready to learn and continue to evolve even further into my joyous Higher Self. I hope that by sharing this entry and exposing a deep layer of myself, it may give you the freedom to choose to do the same and stake your own claim to reach inside yourself and grow. Thank you for allowing me to share with you and if you find this helps you in anyway, feel free to comment and let me know. Live on! -M I accept the fact that I have commitment issues. Not some superficial explanations of my relationship shortcomings but a real and deeper exploration of my relationship issues. I am doing this so that I can love wholly and completely and without pretense or apprehension, and, above all else, wit

At the very thought of what you represent You put my stomach in knots and stir an ache so deep There is no escape; I am trapped within my own womb by the seed you have planted Within me Who is to know what will blossom in my private garden or What weeds will grow; how can you tender me to nurture the Idea that has been Awakened I cannot give it safe passage because my core betrays it with a simple thought of you Twisted and tied against the unchain joy of what this new birth brings You put me on an edge above the precipice of beginnings Only to wretch against the impending final moment Imagined There is nothing more real than the happiness that you promise and the fear of not ever having it again that keeps me twisted in this mess of emotions playing false tricks on my expanding mind and my growing heart. There is nothing more real than the true possibility of Forever and the true fact of Never. There is only this moment this thought this feeling of wonder a

My goodness how I have thought of you I remember those nights that I used to sit and long for you, How could I forget the way it felt to ache to hear your voice and see you Just one more time My goodness how I have thought of you I would open up the chasms deep inside And let you back in What more could there be in this world to fill the void The joy of being so connected in commiseration with you Just one more time

During this time of year, fresh off the heels of New Year celebrations and revelry, everybody starts talking about the changes they intend to bring in with them and implement. These changes, or resolutions, most of the time get lost and forgotten within months. We get bombarded by the media by "resolution stories" to the point of annoyance (to me). I don't make resolutions, I make choices of evolution. I intend to continue to change the way I conduct my life on many levels. I intend to make change in how I serve the world and my community. I intend to further embrace my creativity and my commitment to it and its expansion. I intend to strengthen my business so that it evolves and grows exponentially. I intend to grow my personal relationships and always express my love and adoration to those who are dear to me. I intend to continue to explore the world around me and share my point of view of it with you. I intend to always have an open heart, an open mind, and open eyes s

It doesn't matter the time, incident, or place because Love will always be present and will always heal. t ime is irrelevant and has no bearing when it comes to loss or pain or strife because Love will come in and will always heal. life ebbs and flows and continues on because Love will always be present and will always heal. it is a gun with a beam of Divine Lovelight and it shines on. Forever. I point it at you, at me, at the world, at the Universe. I point the Beam of Love.