Intersexion

I can't trust you. Trust is a big, huge thing for me. It has to be, it is the basis of a relationship--platonic, emotional, sexual, spiritual, et al. If I can't trust you, I can't love you in the only way I know how, honestly. So don't fault me when I lie to you. I will not blame you for going away. I didn't believe in you in the first place so I was not honest to begin with.  The loss is yours, not mine. Honesty is the best, the biggest, most important policy.

Love,         You bring me joy and heavenly bliss. The World is complete when I am in your presence and hollow when we are apart. I am caught up completely in the rapture. When you are away it feels like we are thousands of miles apart and I longingly ache to be with you, to hear your voice, to get lost in your eyes. I will swim in the deepest depths of the sea to cleanse my Soul for you. How can I raise you up like you have done for me? All I want to do is to return the favor, a thousand fold. I am happy. It is because of You. The smallest things about you are the biggest inspirations to me--could you be a muse to me? It's beyond sexual, it's connection. I want to wake up in your arms like we did on Sunday morning, hearing the songs your birds were singing, the light of the day filling the room gently, our bodies intertwined, your kiss on my neck. I am awakened. Let us energize each other. We have moved forward into a new "us"--where do we ...

You go to leave, the door has just closed; In your absence, once more I am filled with the sting of sadness. You return to me, the door has opened again;  In your presence, once more I am filled with the light of love.

Love,      I am just going to feel this one out--completely. It feels natural, whole, it feels like pure kismet, meant to be. I feel no counter emotion-those feelings of doubt or uncertainty, or of an impending finality, an end. I just am able to be honest for the first time, in a long time. I have no desire to have it end. It is just beginning. I have total trust in the course that is being charted and am guided by divine force. I feel that our connection is within our mutual understanding and it exists in its own realm with its own language and culture. A heart connection-found. We exist on a transcendental dimension founded on creation, joy, Love, Light- I have been searching for this just as long as you have and so grateful to have been  privileged  to witness and be in the presence of you again, after seemingly forgotten lifetimes eons ago. You will transform me to celestial heights and I am ready and willing to return the favor with...

Did you know you would have to catch your breath the first time you laid eyes on me like I had known I'd have to for you? My heart stood still for a beat until I heard your sweet voice say my name and joy skipped across my face caught in the knowing,  I smiled Did you know that you'd hold a special place in my life the first time you laid eyes on me like I had known I'd have with you? My  mind's at ease and my spirit is in comfort and my soul is enveloped lying next to you and held in your embrace caught in the knowing,  I smile Did you know you would still care for me after I am gone the first time you laid eyes on me like I had known I'd do for you? My mind is filled with lasting pleasant memories each time I think of you, when I wonder of when next I'll hear your sweet voice, stilled that I will always love you caught in the knowing,  I will smile

I remember when I used 2 love u It was such an undertaking U were my everything I wanted nothing more than 2 bask in the glow of your never-ending light U were my stars at night and my sun during the day And now u have gone and left me here,  alone and far away I remember when I used 2 need u Like a drug I wanted 2 take all of u in U were my compliment I wanted nothing more than 2 hold u tight against my skin And let u in2 the hallow in my heart and fill me up And now u have gone and gave your heart 2 the one who came b4 me I remember when I used 2 want u Deep and driving cravings of just 2 be near u 2 hear u speak and smell your skin were all the things I wanted 2 be in U were my desire and my essence,  longing 4 u at every waking turn And now u’re gone U’ve been led astray

I’ve asked 4 strength 2 carry on 2 move 4ward like a flicker of light I’ve flown away 2 join a new flock 2 be on my way with wings of courage and I’ve taken flight I’ve surveyed the stars and move full speed ahead 2 travel on with peace and understanding I’ve soared Far beyond any distance I have ever gone b4 2 find that I am one 2 have and one 2 hold, I will go the distance 2wards the freedom of love

A flash of skin shone as  the small of your back smiles at me, having me longing to caress  the creaminess of that exotic valley of flesh It is there that I want  to plant a gentle kiss  to show you how beautiful I think you are

What more do I have 2 do 2 make  u see that I was truly meant  4 u like u were truly meant  4 me?

The following was originally written in 2005 in my personal digital journal in response to a conversation I was having over dinner with a group of young like-minded professionals who lived in my apartment building at the time. It appeared in a different form in its original entry, directed more in regards to the wider spectrum of our conversation and with some direction aimed at persons at the dinner.  What came from the entry was a letter of heart to myself, and all of its stirrings. I have held on to it with the intention of revising it and writing is as a "valentine" to myself. I began reading it again recently and decided to "finish" it and set it with a new heart and a mind. What follows is that "valentine" in its true form... Enjoy and, as always, Love One Another. Masculine vs Feminine (Remixed + Revisited) I am naturally androgynous and EASILY blur the gender lines. And yes, that extends 2 my mannerisms and the way that I speak. I am f...

Today is a day that was set aside to remind us of our inherent and divine gift: Love. Love is the essence of all things; without it there would be nothing except nothing. It is the color with which we paint our world. It is the heart with which we feel. It is the eyes with which we see. It fuels the mind with which we come to understand. It comes from a place of knowing. Go out today, and every day as a matter of truth and fact, and cultivate, create, share, express, live, and be Love. Enjoy it...the Feel of and the Good of Love. I Love You (yes, you) for many things: especially because you take care in looking, feeling, and being good, with your own personal style and flair and energy. Thank You. *previously published on  another  site of which I am the publisher and owner of in 2010

I can remember the color of the light  as it splayed itself across the white walls of the room  and the feel of you in my bed I can remember feeling the weight of the sounds of our love that was made your body pressed on mine, and you made me feel proud to say that I loved you and in comfortable contemplation of how easily I was caught then, once more and again. Suspended in the absence of us I can see the empty look of all of the emptiness that lies within the knowing that there is no longer “we”, “us”, or even “them”, the impression that is left here now is the full understanding that there is now only a measure of time given as a token from another realm a nurturing realization that I will be so full of me,  without you

It doesn't matter the time, incident, or place because Love will always be present and will always heal. t ime is irrelevant and has no bearing when it comes to loss or pain or strife because Love will come in and will always heal. life ebbs and flows and continues on because Love will always be present and will always heal. it is a gun with a beam of Divine Lovelight and it shines on. Forever. I point it at you, at me, at the world, at the Universe. I point the Beam of Love.

I am on the path of evolutionary change. I acknowledge this and am no longer resistant to change. I see this change taking many shapes and many forms; I see a new path being cleared for me and it is this road I am choosing to journey upon. It will take me far and near and at the end of it, I will change . I will metamorphoses, again. To me.

Venture below that's where you'll find a love that flows like a river through time and feels with a heart aching with truth Seek my love below and allow it to comfort and soothe a solace only known when embraced and intertwined fixed together as one bound in unity of bodies and of minds 

U come 2 me in the dark of night and take me over like a mysterious entity, winged and ready 2 take flight u wrap your joy around me and I feel safe from the unknown U come 2 me in the thrill of the chase and find me ready 2 give in 2 the game, legs aching and short of breath ready 2 lay claim U lay your body on top of mine and place your mass inside of my empty hollow and fill me up with your radiant Light U come 2 me as a song comes 2 my voice and fills my throat with the melody of my Soul, vibrations of Love quiver through me and spill out in2 your arms, the likes of which I never want 2 leave u stand beside me and 2gether we journey through this existence 2wards Ecstasy 2gether we can no longer hide, we can no longer run 4 the strength of Love's will makes the 2 of us become 1 we swim deep in the Sea of Bliss and underneath the wetness again u come 2 me and I am Undone

Picking Up A Lost Habit Miranda understood why, after years of dropping the habit, she started smoking again.  It was because of Ben, the gorgeous boy with sin in his smile. Ben had taunted her with a single cigarette after an intense and rather brash zipless fuck on Friday night. He laid into her like he was filling a peace pipe with ancient peyote, pummeling the earthen tobacco and magical herbs, weaving his spell of seduction and empty promises of commiseration and friendship beyond their initial encounter at the bar. Miranda gave in willingly to his winsome charm and his silly sense of humor,  eventually  inviting him over to her Westside pied-a-terre for a nightcap after enjoying his antics, wit, and company at the posh bar. It was there that she drank in the concoction of him, laced with flirtatious stolen kisses from his sweet lips and later, at her place and in her bed, salty, sex induced tears of passion and joy. He filled her up and smoked her and left her w...

Before my eyes fail me and my body beckons me to bed I must say, with the utmost respect and sincerity, that this journey of love is not in the least, most dull or boring. Before my eyes close to sleep to dream of another existence I must say that I love you.

Call Girl He told me to tell him that I loved him right before he came. I thought it an unusual request, but, in my line of work I’ve heard far more bizarre and stranger things. I indulged him hesitantly, whispering it at first. “Tell me! Tell me you love me! Say it please!” he urged me. "Oh, I love you. Yes! I love you!", I replied. His hips started pushing into me at a more rapid pace, until he was relentlessly pumping his big cock inside of me. "Do you love me?" he asked again, one final time. "Yes, I love you Joe. I love you, Joe!" Just then, I felt his manhood engorge and expand, then it began to pulse. I felt his seed spill and fill my pussy up. We lay there for a few seconds, then he got up off me, walked to the bathroom and asked for a towel. I stood up, his weight leaving a ghostly impression on my body, his seed still inside of me. My breasts danced as I walked to the linen closet to get him a towel. He was already in th...

I am waiting with the patience of centuries to bloom I am waiting with the humility of humilities to come out of my cocoon And like a butterfly I will be something new (January 13, 1998)