Intersexion

I have loved people who can never be entirely mine I know this is futile  yet I continue to chase them I have grown accustomed  to feeling complete by a meager effort even when they choose  something else deemed better over me when will I ever learn? feeling completed but not whole he only kisses me while he's deep in my unknown telling me to not get too attached it nevers turns into something more than a feel a little is better than nothing why do I let my heart be spurned?

Do you realize...no one will ever love you more than me. I still hold on to this truth, even though I should let go.  I guess I want you to know this truth, by experience. I would give up everything I have just to show you, don't you know?  Come back to me and let us be.

the ghosts of my past tell me to not let go of them they nudge, they prod, they pull me into memories that are warm and welcoming, that leave bitter thoughts that I'd rather not have linger the spirits in the wind tell me to move forward they push, they urge, they move me to new territories that are full and present, that leave sweet longings that I can't even count on my ten fingers I never thought I'd get another chance until I found you  you open me up to wide avenues of  spirit, of Love because it is You, there is no other place I choose to be   Salamat mahal ko, inilatag kita sa bawat hibla ng aking pagkatao, mahal kita sa buong puso ko

the hardest part is letting go;  I spit out your seeds and swallow your pulp I can feel it go down, it used to be so bitter but you left the sweetest taste in my mouth

I miss you. Do you think about what we had like I do?  We were perfect together.  I am forever thinking about you, those wonderful times. Let's build a time machine and go back, what do you say?  I would turn back time just to feel you again, like before.  Like I still do.

I return, over these long but few years since you left,  to places that we used go.  Sometimes people ask me,“where’s your husband…that man you are always with?",   ask how is “everything going with the two of you?”, they invite us to gatherings, to lavish parties that we socially fit into, they often want me to tell you simply, “Hello”? I know they only ask because they see me alone, without you.  We were inseparable. We still are. How do I tell anyone who asks...? How you left to go to another realm, and hopefully, you are there waiting for me..?