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Efforts

Love, After all of this time I just want you to know that your efforts to be with me have not gone unnoticed or unappreciated. It endears me to know that you make an effort to see me and to be with me, whether for a multitude of reasons or for an nth degree of nothing, it does not matter. It shows that you want to be next to me, that you want to look into my green eyes, that you want to feel me at my deepest depths, that you want to give and receive pleasure from a simple human being such as me.  In your extraordinary presence, I am pleased and I am grateful, and I am touched beyond the obvious, all the way down to the subtle. You are my favorite thing. Bisous,   -M  (Jan 3, 2015)

"Just for You, Daddy"

On Oct 4, 2014 5:29 AM, "XX" wrote: Holy fuck I miss u When do you get in my love? Sent from my iPhone On Oct 4, 2014, at 8:45 AM,” Mx Amoureaux” wrote: >I'm home darling xx I got in last night. I came back early from my trip to see you... *sent from Outer Space* On Oct 4, 2014 6:04 AM, "XX" wrote: Gosh I didn't know u came back early for me. Compounds my sadness and longing for u my love.   I had to fly early this morn to see my daughter for a few days. Back Thursday. Really really kills me I won't see u til then. Had no choice. Have to go to a school event and my work ended Thursday and begins else where on or around the 12th. Will be back Thursday and will hold you closer than I ever have before.   Unless u can come to NYC baby but I highly doubt u can so quickly. Wish u could be in NYC or close to me. In my apt. Or in your hotel. Waiting for me.   I almost didn't go so I could see u a...

Papahoggies (A Love Letter of Thanks)

Pappahoggies,   Please excuse me for sending you an email message, but for the strangest happenstance, I don't have any of your personal contact info on my current device; I would have just texted. And, as you know, I am not on social media so I couldn't just send you a FB message. Oh, this modern world.   I was just thinking about you this evening. Thinking of you in that deep way one sometimes does. Well, not "one" but me. I have so many fond memories of you. I am still in such amazement that you and I became friends, in that magical way that we came together. As simple as it was, there was indeed magic there. I am still touched by it. And oh how quickly our lives aligned with each other and we began creating memories that when we think back on them, as time moves forward, they are part of our youth. I am still moved by it.   We were there for each other in some dire times, and we were there for each other in some bright times, too. We were a part of eac...

"Sunday Morning"

On Aug 9, 2015, at 9:29 AM, "Mx Amoureaux" wrote: Oh how lovely it would be to sneak under your covers and give you a deep wet kiss and taste the droplets of salty sweetness that escape from you when I come up for air. You’re the most delicious thing to me. Miss you. Need you. So in love with you. Xox On Aug 9, 2015 9:35 AM, "XX" wrote: Will u do that to me soon baby? On Aug 9, 2015, at 9:38 AM, “Mx Amoureaux” wrote: Absolutely yes. I'd do that to you every morning. On Aug 9, 2015 9:42 AM, "XX" wrote: Mmmmm fuck. Want that so badly On Aug 9, 2015, at 10:11 AM, "Mx Amoureaux" wrote: And I want to do that to you, so badly and often. But you have to promise that we’ll sit quietly afterward reading the Sunday Times and I get the Arts section first ;) On Aug 9, 2015 at 10:21 AM “XX” wrote: I promise

La porte est ferme

R, I haven’t heard from you for quite a few days now and just wanted to make sure that you are faring well and making strides in your progress. I was left with the impression that we would at least talk and get some truths out into the space between us so they can dissipate into the ether and we could move forward/onward but it appears perhaps this isn’t going to happen. Perhaps for you leaving silently is the best way to go. I can respect that… I want to thank you for the time you shared and spent with me and I will always be honored to know a part of the real you. I really grew fond of you these three years and I only ever wanted to give you the pure freedom of pleasure that I know you need and deserve. I thank you for allowing me to simply feel , especially at a time for me when I didn’t think I could or wanted to. I thank you for sharing with me the sweetness that I have always felt and seen in you. These are but a few of the gifts you have given me and that I will al...

Swim (Part 3)

My Love, We come to this juncture, where our streams flow into other tides. The undercurrent pulls us into new and different directions.  Quietly still on the surface, all the movement happens below the surface and in the undertow. There is no fog ahead, there are no storms on the horizon.  Because I have known you and loved you down to my very core, there are only clear travels I will sail forward on, riding the winds of Freedom.  -M July 9, 2015

Musings From My Heart 2

Love,         You bring me joy and heavenly bliss. The World is complete when I am in your presence and hollow when we are apart. I am caught up completely in the rapture. When you are away it feels like we are thousands of miles apart and I longingly ache to be with you, to hear your voice, to get lost in your eyes. I will swim in the deepest depths of the sea to cleanse my Soul for you. How can I raise you up like you have done for me? All I want to do is to return the favor, a thousand fold. I am happy. It is because of You. The smallest things about you are the biggest inspirations to me--could you be a muse to me? It's beyond sexual, it's connection. I want to wake up in your arms like we did on Sunday morning, hearing the songs your birds were singing, the light of the day filling the room gently, our bodies intertwined, your kiss on my neck. I am awakened. Let us energize each other. We have moved forward into a new "us"--where do we ...

Eros

R, You’ve been on my mind since you left yesterday.  I want you to know that I hope that our time together gives you comfort and makes you happy and that our visits take you to a place where the other things that press on you don’t exist, if even for a moment. I have never felt eros such as what we have. It thrills me, gives me pure joy because it is of You. I’m blessed and thankful. This love I give to you--know that it is yours freely and solely and without conditions. I give it to you because I know that you deserve it, that you’re more than worth it, and that it’s your time to have it in the way that you see fit and comfortable for you. Don’t mind me when I press on about the silly things my mind wonders about. It is not my intention to add pressure, I hope I haven’t.  I want to give myself freely to you and to shower you with this love--it overflows for you, beyond even my old spirit’s comprehension or the concepts of my contemporary mind.  Pure and simp...

Musings From My Heart 1

Love,      I am just going to feel this one out--completely. It feels natural, whole, it feels like pure kismet, meant to be. I feel no counter emotion-those feelings of doubt or uncertainty, or of an impending finality, an end. I just am able to be honest for the first time, in a long time. I have no desire to have it end. It is just beginning. I have total trust in the course that is being charted and am guided by divine force. I feel that our connection is within our mutual understanding and it exists in its own realm with its own language and culture. A heart connection-found. We exist on a transcendental dimension founded on creation, joy, Love, Light- I have been searching for this just as long as you have and so grateful to have been  privileged  to witness and be in the presence of you again, after seemingly forgotten lifetimes eons ago. You will transform me to celestial heights and I am ready and willing to return the favor with...

"Come Get Dessert"

On Feb 28, 2015, at 9:59 PM, "Mx Amoureaux” wrote: S weet delights are here laying, waiting just how you like it, in my candlit room Come take me love. On Feb 28, 2015 10:04 PM, "XX" wrote U have been on my mind all night .You're so fucking sexy baby. God.  On Feb 28, 2015, at 10:07 PM, "Mx Amoureaux” wrote: You make me that way. So hot for u all the time. On Feb 28, 2015 10:09 PM, "XX" wrote: I'm your big dicked lover  ;) I love exploding in u more than anything On Feb 28, 2015, at 10:13 PM, “Mx Amoureaux” wrote: I love that exact moment when you throb and pulse and I feel your heat inside me. It fills me with joy. On Feb 28, 2015 10:14 PM, "XX" wrote: You are perfect On Feb 28, 2015, at 10:19 PM, “Mx Amoureaux” wrote: You make me that way Come get dessert 

Rain

On Sat, Feb 7, 2015 at 4:44 PM, "Mx Amoureaux" wrote:  Did my man get caught in the rain on your bike on your way home? On Sat, Feb 7, 2015 4:45 PM, "XX" wrote: yes it was beautiful. felt so good - you and the rain

Swim (Part 2)

My Love, Thank you for being a light to show me the way forward. Thank you for illuminating my heart. Thank you for giving me hope that love still exists here for me. Thank you for being my kindred spirit and for finding me again and for bringing me back to myself, centered and balanced and complete. I will always feel you, I will always love you, I will always know you in this present existence and beyond through the veil and expanse of time. -M July 9, 2009

Swim (Part 1)

My Love, I remember the city under the sea and being with you there in that incarnation that was seemingly so long ago and only just yesterday, confounded in the strangeness of Time. Every minute detail comes rushing back!! How we were so United, and ultimately Divided.  Politics, the art of the Impossible; Love, the art of the Possible. You were who I was running to--and we meet again on dry land, only to transcend the earth and fly. We will stop "missing" each other when we give each a piece of our self to the other and carry it with us through our days... You can give it to me and I will give it to you--we will turn it into Light together. Your nuances are endearing, for they tickle me pink and rainbow bright. They lend to moments of folly, and eons of little dreams, where I find you there, gentle as the Sun on my face. You soothe me. May I be the solace you seek. Let me make you feel better... -M May 4, 2009

Letter to an Old Friendly Flame

J,      Thank you for seeing my worth. Especially during a time (a long, dreadful period) of loveless existence, you saw the deeply rooted diamond of who I am. I relished in my pre-existence of supposed security, commitment, of a life conjoined, and I was not yet fully comfortable in my new life role as a solitary artist, of a lone bohemian in a modern technocracy. When you spied your eyes upon me that first time, you instantly saw my worth. I thank you for coming forward and reaching far out of your comfort zone towards me. I thank you for expressing your joy of knowing me and for making that evolutionary reach toward me. I now know that you felt that I was worth it-on a deeper and on a surface level-and just by this action you came to show me that I am worth it. I am worth loving. -M. February 17, 2009